I don't know that I failed at my fast, but I struggled none the less. I didn't fail because I ate something; although, I did. Last night as a warmed up my son's pizza, I took two bites of bacon left on the warming tray. 23 hours in, I was at the church helping a young lady's family prepare a spaghetti dinner as a fundraiser for her upcoming mission trip, and I was offered a key lime tart. Not thinking, I enjoyed it all.
I failed this attempt at fasting not because I ate but because I could not focus. For the past day, life and work have been demanding. I have run here, been interviewed by a radio station, ordered mulch for a church project, went to a meeting, grocery shopped, and a vast assortment of other important things.
I forgot that fasting and solitude are an excellent pairing. Fasting is much more than not eating. Fasting is about focus and attention. I lacked both over the last 24 hours. The food thing was no big deal. I guess that is why fasting is difficult and not eating is only inconvenient.
Friday, October 9, 2009
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